On Trusting God
I think sometimes we as humans make things exceedingly difficult on ourselves. We tend to magnify our problems, blow them out of proportion, or force ourselves to figure it out “the hard way.” Luckily, when the going gets tough, the tough have God. And those are the times when it seems most obvious to us to seek Him. I know from personal experience that when things are going well in my life, it becomes easier to let my relationship with God drift a little bit. I’ll push my time with Him into a box, and rationalize it with school assignments and other obligations.
But what about when things are really hard? What about the times when you feel so scared that you begin to put your trust in things of the world because the fallible part of you, the part that makes you imperfect thinks that you’ll get quicker results that way? Of course, every believer knows that everything that happens is by God…so really, relying on earthly measures is a colossal waste of time. Yet we still do it–why?? I’ll draw on my life for example. I’ve been chronically ill for the past 5 years, and it’s been a bumpy road of check-ups, surgeries and medications. When I panic about my new med’s side effects, I know in my case, it isn’t because I’m actively mistrusting God. I’m not telling God, “I’m going on this medication because it’s going to fix me and you won’t.” Rather, I omit God altogether. I don’t pray for healing. I don’t ask Him for help. Sure, I continue to pray for the things I’ve always prayed for–my family, friends, school, forgiveness, etc. I even pray for the health of other people. Yet for the longest time, it never occurred to me to pray for my own healing. And that’s definitely something I’ve been working on lately. I know none of my medications are worth a passing thought if I don’t have God. He’s the one doing the true healing.
After all, it was Jesus who said:
“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden,
and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you,
and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly
in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.“
This notion of radical trust, of seeking God for healing before anything else is something that has been on my mind a lot as of late. But I know that I am right where He wants me and if healing is in His plan, then it will happen. And if it isn’t, I know that He can use my illness for His glory. Either way, I know that trusting in God’s plan for me rather than worrying about my own plans for myself definitely lifts the burden and makes life a whole lot less stressful. I think if we all can remember that emboldened verse now and again, not matter what is troubling us, we can remind ourselves to give our burdens to God. Trust me, it’ll make your life a LOT easier.